oh

you know, when they're not around any more but they're here nevertheless- in your mind, like imaginary friend and you don't feel alone that much anymore.
it's just.. i don't know how to say it. like i'm missing a part of my body. for real. and at the same time- like it was never there to begin with.
i have no soul to tell. it would be easier to let it all out.
feels like passing a kidney stone.